Soooo about 1 year ago my mom gave me this book called moxie. She kept saying, "You're my little moxie". I never really understood what she meant until I finally read this book. Its a little orange book of about 30 pages and makes the most sense of anything I have ever read or heard. I am a very confident person if you dont know me.So for me, this was "pumping me up" if you will. This book has so much truth in it. Some of the quotes are yes, very cheesy but very truthful. Some of the quotes are: -Give me a place to stand and I will move mountains. -If its me against 48, I feel sorry for the 48. -Dont let yesterday use up too much of today. Okok I know but these quotes got me through a lot. I would carry around this little orange book all the time and read it when I needed to be reminded of how awesome I was. That seems very conceited but its true. I am awesome. I am worthy of more than I give myself credit for. Ok this isnt the point of this blog to rant about how perfect I am. Joke. But one of my friends called me tonight and said they were battling with something and having a hard time being patient and I started to give them advice about how you have to know that everything is a part of a big plan that you were meant to carry out and succeed. I am a patient person when it comes to the small things. In the big picture, I am very unpatient . I want things to happen when I want them to. So I can sit there and tell everyone else to be patient and to know that what happens does so because it all has to. Well thats not fair of me. So i am learning to be patient. Not with the small things but the big things. Because no matter what I do or how I do them, its not me who paints my big picture.
One of my good friends Samantha just got engaged and I was so weirded out to think that she had found the one person who she was never going to run out of things to talk about with. I thought to myself, "Im alone," not like literally, but I do not even remotely know who that is going to be for me. I started to think about all my friends and how they have a good idea of who they want to be with forever. Oh shit. Well then I thought about the fact that I also have a lot of friends who dont have someone. And that made more sense to me because I was refreshed with the fact that I am not alone. because if we are all alone, we are all in that together too.
So it has been a while since I have updated my blog but there has been a lot going on. I have learned to let it go in the best way I know how. I am back to a very happy place and am enjoying my senior year more than I ever thought was possible. I have been trying this thing where I find the positive and beautiful in everthing. There is something beautiful in EVERYTHING. Something good will come out of every negative situation regardless of how upset or mad you are in that given moment. This past weekend I traveled to Lubbock, Texas to visit a friend and Miles made the comment to me that he was so happy that I was able to see the beauty of where he lived the way he saw it. When you think of northwest Texas its not what you would think of beautiful. We went our to his ranch not far outside of Lubbock and on the way there it was raining and I was playing on the Ipod the whole time and didnt hardly look up on the way. We played around all day and rode 4 wheelers and such. It came time to leave the rain clouds started to roll away right as the sun was setting. As we were leaving, me being the diva I am, asked him to stop so I could take pictures. I got out his camera and went to town. Its the most beautiful thing I have seen since Wyoming. It made me come back down to earth again and realize that I do not need to be worried about next years plans ( well a job yes) but to be in the present. Be present. It sounds so dumb and cheesy but Im never going to get this back. Everrrrr. So as we were taking pictures, you couldnt have wiped the smile off of my face. I was so genuinely happy and I realized I had almost forgotten how that felt. I have the most amazing friends and family in the entire world and there is no reason for me to ever complain.
So my best friend since childbirth, Shelby Jordan, has taught me how to be happy my entire life but since she went to Auburn and I went off to Alabama we dont get to be together as much. Since we were 2 years old that girl has been my very best friend. We think just alike. When we get together its never about, how shitty school is or boy problems or drama back at fort payne, its always time to laugh. Im pretty confident that there has never been a time that we were together and havent laughed so hard we are crying. I have never missed someone so much when we went off the college but me and her have maintained such a good relationship throughout college. Everytime someone has broken up with me or made me mad or done something to piss me off, Shelby always knows what to say, whether I realize that a that time or not. She will tell me, "Thats dumb, Allie. You dont need that" or " You better be glad it happened now than later." She has always been so happy and she always will be. I have no idea what I would do without her constantly reminding me what it is like to be happy. She is my best friend in the whole world and more people need to get friends like her. I am posting some pictures of Lubbock, where we were taking pictures and they dont do it half the justice but it was absolutley humbling to watch.
