The title of this blog post has sort of summed up how I have felt lately. I am ending my fall semester of my senior year and my favorite team is going to the national championship!!!! Sorry I had to say it. Since I have last updated my blog my best friend has gotten engaged!!!! Shelby is actually getting married. I always knew she would be the first but it made me really sad when I thought about it. I am happy beyond words for her and I know this is not the end of our friendship but now she is part of another pair that does not include me. Her husband to be is amazing and I know they are beyond perfect for each other. So now we are in the process of planning her beautiful wedding.
I am trying to figure out what to do after graduation and that part is the most confusing of them all. Where am I going to be happiest? So the "Smile and Wave" part is how I feel. Ignore the fact that I have to get a job and just smile and wave and have a good time. Which is obviously not the best choice and plan to have. Hahaha. I have been wrestling with the fear of having to grow up and move somewhere where I know no one or staying in Tuscaloosa or moving back out to Wyoming. It is taking me longer to realize that I have got to find the faith that what is suppose to be will be and I may or may not end up in a place that I want to be in but I am there because that is where I am suppose to be at that time in my life. SO I have come to the conclusion that my FAITH must be much bigger than my FEAR, if that makes any sense. It sounds very cliche and generic but my mom has always told me that what is meant to be will be. This part of my life will pass by and I will move on but I need to know that planning is not such a bad thing. I guess the fear of me not taking full advantage of my last year at Alabama if standing in the way of me planning my future. I need to grow up and face everything that I need to face while I still have time to do so. I have been needing something to truly believe in and what I needed to believe in the most was right in front of me. ME. I will believe in me.
I have been wrestling with the fear of having to grow up and move somewhere where I know no one or staying in Tuscaloosa or moving back out to Wyoming. It is taking me longer to realize that I have got to find the faith that what is suppose to be will be and I may or may not end up in a place that I want to be in but I am there because that is where I am suppose to be at that time in my life. SO I have come to the conclusion that my FAITH must be much bigger than my FEAR, if that makes any sense. It sounds very cliche and generic but my mom has always told me that what is meant to be will be. This part of my life will pass by and I will move on but I need to know that planning is not such a bad thing. I guess the fear of me not taking full advantage of my last year at Alabama if standing in the way of me planning my future. I need to grow up and face everything that I need to face while I still have time to do so. I have been needing something to truly believe in and what I needed to believe in the most was right in front of me. ME. I will believe in me.
