MH

Ok most of you may or may not know that i have spent the last two summers in Jackson Hole, Wyoming working on a guest ranch called Moose Head Ranch. Me and one of my best friends (Liz Jordan) applied to work out there together for the summer of 2010. We both got the job and it wasnt anything that I thought it would be. I immdiately fell in love with everything that Moose Head had. I met two of my best friends now, Pierson and Sarah, and had the summer of my life. I was a prep chef i guess you could say. I did a lot of prep work for the chefs there a moose head and loved every single minute of it. After that summer I was in a very serious relationship and knew I could never do that to Will and I's relationship ever again and decided i was not going to return to Moose Head for a second year. I came back to school and had a wonderful semester. December rolled around and life pretty much got in the way. I learned the hard way about a lot of things and about a lot of people in my life. Thats wheh I pretty much knew God was trying to tell me that I wasnt ready. I wasnt ready for anything i thought i was. Me and Will broke up. I decided to return to Moose Head for a second season. That was a verryyyy hard time in my life and I learned more than I ever thought I would. The thing i had to realize then was that its not my plan. I do not run the show. I cant picture my life in 10 years how i want it to be and just expect it to fall into my hands. Im not saying that i have fully grasped that concept yet, because i certainly havent but i think all of the things happend to me because they had to. Ive pretty much had to let go and say "Heres my life and take it where you will" because doing it on my own was onviously not working. I returned to Moose Head. Boyy ohhh boyyy did i have any clue what would happen this summer. I didnt ever want to have to say that one summer out weighed the other but it did. Me and sarah became closer than i ever thought possible. We are the exact same person. that didnt take us very long to realize. I met a guy that is one of the most awesome peolpe i have ever met and still think he is. Matt and I started to hang out and did so the rest of the summer and may not have gone about it in the right way but some times that happens. At the end of the summer I, of course, died a little inside because i was the happiest I had ever been in my life and was having to leave the most beautiful place on earth. and some of the most amazing people ever. Me and Matt had to decided to try and make a long distance work. He goes to Va tech and thats 9 hours away from tuscaloosa. As im sure youve guessed it didnt seem to be that easy. We have since split ways but I will always think he is a great person. Maybe cupid should have thought about shooting BOTH of us next time. This summer taught me to be exactly who you want to be because pretending to be something else is exhausting. Its God's plan. Not mine. I dont call the shots but i am going to get to have an honest effort at doing as much good as possible while im here.